Reflective writing and me

I've always wanted to write a reflective type of essay... here's my first attempt!

And then we are only left with reflections of what they are going through...

At a stayover, you come to know that he had a heartbreak, you wonder why he didnt call up, then remember why. A few days later, you see a changed status on orkut, single -> committed and you smile to yourself. You find out through the testimonials, fan lists or photo albums who it is, and find yourself surprised. You remember the times when he talked about her but didn't have the nerve to go and say hi! You wonder how this has happened now...

She calls once a while (you are probably still to proud to call her...) But the call isn't just to say hi, like it used to be earlier, instead it is about, which book did you refer for this subject or help on some assignment or stuff like that. You wonder how you both could talk to each other for hours and hours earlier, how you knew everything that was going on with her, and how the things have turned out now.

As expected, you finally see them there. What starts as a formal conversation ends up not so formally. You think everyone changes with time. You promise to stay in touch. You wonder why you were so unwilling to go earlier. Time tells. The time soon comes when you find yourself exactly where you had begun...

You read blogs, but they are mere words strung together now. There was a point when you knew exactly what those words meant. Now, they all seem lost. Seems like the words hold some secrets, they just don't want to talk to you... You see him online and instinctively say hi. Even if there is a reply, you know that its not the hi that earlier told you so many more things.

You want to go back, but you don't know whats stopping you from going back to lost friends.